I have an unhealthy relationship with my body. A desire for self-harm and a loathing for my own appearance sometimes makes it hard to eat. Simultaneously for me, hunger often leads to thoughts of suicidal ideation. Where some people get ‘hangry’ I get ‘huicidal.’ This combination exacerbates the already negative value I have placed on my body. This observation in myself has allowed me to work on self control with eating and fight my instincts to starve myself based on my unhealthy view of my body in order to stave off my hunger blues.